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But wait, there’s more!!!! September 21, 2010

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The underground house church is just amazing to me.  I know there is never a time when I wanted someone to teach me for 8 hours straight.  (especially old testament!!!) 

I want to go to a Secret Church, to fall on my knees and not worry about critical stares, to really “mean” it, feel God move…

I want to hunger more for the Word.  I want to crave it like I crave McDonald’s Coke.

I know I’m saved but hate when something causes me to doubt..then i say to myself, am I really???!!!  stop it!  “…when we add a superstitious prayer, a subsequent dose of church attendance, and obedience to some of the Bible, we feel pretty sure that we will be all right in the end.”  pretty much!  BUT WAIT, there’s more…. we can’t produce or program salvation.   The beauty of the gospel is He has to open our eyes and hearts! 

“All of God’s holy wrath and hatred toward sin and sinners, stored up since the beginning of gthe world, is about to be poured out on him, and he is sweating blood at the thought of it.” 

I remember laying in bed at night thinking “how does Jesus dying on the cross make me get into heaven?”  I couldn’t put it together in my mind how that had anything to do with my eternal destiny.  I grew up in a christian home and was told that Jesus died on the cross so I could be saved.  But why?   Why just tell people that and not the whole story.  The contemporary christianity sales pitch.  I needed to hear that “the righteous wrath and justice of God due us” came down on Christ. 

I accepted Christ at a very young age.  Did I feel I needed Him?  Really, I just didn’t want to go to hell!  He is worthy of my total surrender!  I was saved to know God.  That’s a new one too!  I have never had to risk my life to learn or hear about Him. 

I want to recover a passion for the Word and to long for Him.  I want that reward.

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that’s alot September 14, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — mommysaysbelovely @ 2:45 pm

Enjoying reading alot of posts about Radical!  
Holding a crying boy so I have some time 2 read/type with one hand!  Alot to do today and not getting alot done.  I have transcription to do, lunch to make for bible study, pick up my check, get Chloe from school, soccer practice, supper…all with a 15 week old!  We’ve already been to the doctor this morning, Brody has some wheezing and a cough.  No fever though, PTL!

Not complaining, LOVE to be busy!

 

Like, Radical dude! September 10, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — mommysaysbelovely @ 6:19 pm

So the first chapter has  lived up to my expectations of this not being a fluffy, try this technique to feel better about yourself book.  I picked out this bright orange book and thought…”hmm, what if God shows up and convicts me…then I’ll have to change or quench the Spirit.  God doesn’t like it when I quench the Spirit”  (side note, it was right beside Crazy Love at Sam’s which I also want ASAP)  I was worried about not having time to read (just had a baby, have a 7 year old in school, working from home, domestic goddess duties, womens ministry at my church, other bible study I’m in on Tuesdays, etc)  The first week I got it I found time to read 2 chapters!  PTL

THE AMERICAN DREAM 

I do this thing where I play out these stories he’s telling in my head like a movie.  Like his story about being in the underground house-church in Asia.   I imagine that I’m living in that town and how I would noncholantly sneak away.  who would watch my kids?  is it stuffy from being closed up, I hate breathing breath?  I would be so nervous about being caught I couldn’t pay attention.  And it dawns on me what stuck out most to me in that first chapter.  I’m TOO comfortable!  “We were settling for a Christianity that revolves around catering to ourselves when the central message of Christianity is actually about abandoning ourselves.”  We are startging ro redefine Christianity.  “We are molding Jesus into our image…..that is whome we are most comfortable with”.  I have everything I need to make it in life.  (Not everything I want mind you)  I got disgusted with myself (again) for my complaining critical spirit.  I have it way easy!   A husband who provides, a gorgeous house, nice car, private school for my children, a bible within reach at almost anytime, a stainless steel fridge FULL of food, hot indoor plumbing….etc.   I could do a whole post of things I’m grateful for but take for granted.  (note to self)  I remember reading Safely Home by Randy Alcorn and thinking about those people in that book for months afterwards, like daily.  It’s like they were real!  While those particular people weren’t real…I know some lives go just like that story in different countries.

IS HE WORTH IT?   

Chloe asked me last night what “deprerate” (desperate) meant.   I had to think about it for a second on how to explain that to my 7 year old.  I explained it as someone who feels they have no hope.  I asked her if she knew what hope meant.  She did.  So I said, someone who’s desperate is someone who feels they have nothing to look forward to, or they don’t have a way out of a bad time they’re having in their life.   She said, “oh, see ya”.  running off to soccer practice.               “Do we really believe he is worth abandoning everything for?”   I know I don’t find my fullness in him.   I fill my life up with “stuff”.  ugh, so much stuff!  “commit to believe what Jesus says”  “commit to obey what you have heard”.  I have no trouble committing…I do it all the time for school, church, friends, family, etc.  But to determine not to waste my life on anything but a “uncompromising, unconditional abdomenment to a gracious loving Savior” is RADICAL RISK!  I do want that radical reward though!

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